So I feel this jolt again. A small whisper, haunting my innermost thoughts. Causing an illusion in my brains and sometimes makes me go numb. I can’t limit myself to the numerous questions which I seek answers to. Absolutely, they are mostly rhetoric questions. I do voice them out sometimes and most times I don’t complete the questions. It hangs on air.
Beyond the Mirror, I stared at my reflection searching for answers to the questions that had been plaguing me this whole time.
Who am I? What do I want out of life? Why do I feel so lost and disconnected from the world around me?
As I gazed deeper into my own eyes, I felt a sense of disconnection. The person staring back at me seemed like a stranger, a mere shell of the person I thought I knew.
I turned away from the mirror, feeling frustrated and defeated. I had always been the type of person who had it all together, who knew exactly what they wanted and where they were going. But now, at the age of 25, I feel like I am wandering aimlessly through life, without a clear sense of direction or purpose.
I decided to take a journey, travel to places I had never been to before, meet people I had never met, and experience things I had never experienced. I hoped that by stepping out of my comfort zone, I would be able to discover new things about myself and the world around me.
I packed a small back pack and set off, with no clear destination in mind. I traveled to mountains and valleys, to cities and towns, beaches and forests. Along the way, I met people from all walks of life, each with their own unique stories and experiences.
As I listened to their stories, I began to see the world in a new light. I realized that everyone has their own struggles and challenges, their own fears and doubts. And yet, despite these challenges, people continue to persevere, grow, and evolve.
As I reflect on my own journey, I begin to see myself in a new lens. I realized that I had been living my life according to other people’s expectations, rather than my own desires and dreams. I had been trying to fit into a mold that wasn’t mine, rather than embracing my own uniqueness and individuality.
As I stood on a mountain peak, watching the sunset over the valley below, I felt a sense of clarity and purpose that I had never felt before. I know that I still have a long way to go, that I still have many questions to answer and challenges to overcome. But I also realized that I was on the right path, that I was moving in the direction of my own heart and soul.
As I look out at the breathtaking view before me, I smile, knowing that I have finally found what I have been searching for all along. I have found myself, and in doing so, I’ve discovered a sense of purpose and direction that would guide me for the rest of my life.
I returned home after many months of traveling, feeling refreshed, renewed, and rejuvenated. I know that I still have many challenges ahead of me, but I also knew that I was ready to face them head-on.
WRITTEN BY – HOPE OKON JOHN
